I am so happy I could help in some way !
I think you just need to give it time and let the changes settle. I know that I get as confused as you do when things change, because I feel that I am an entirely different person before and after the change. I think it is due to our condition and that we just don't have a stable core like others do. We lose ourselves very easily.
Work is probably helping you becoming distracted so you don't have to focus on your fears about starting therapy. I'm glad there is something you can do that helps you escape your inner turmoil while it lasts! Give your relationship a chance till you are more settled and your therapy has become everyday, so that you know you are looking at it with more objective eyes.
Glad I could help