Maybe it's too late for you to read this, but it sounds to me like you've acted this way before with your T, though I may be wrong. I think you may feel it's the best way to act now, but in the long run, is it the best way to terminate your therapy? It's not begging and crying if you tell her you'd like help with the transition period, at least. Or the truth, that it's hard to leave her. To me, that's not begging and crying. I can understand where you're coming from, though. I hope your T knows you well enough to read between the lines tonight.