Right now I hate people (men) just for being ugly, not just physically ugly just all around unattractive and only being able to click with a very-very minuscule portion of them.. I got drinks with this guy and all he did was go on and on about brewing beer and drinking beer and I just was not into him.. I went out with this hipster guy, we sorta clicked cause I'm into music/local ****, but I feel like I've dated the same guy 10 times before- like do I REALLY wanna date another guy whose favorite band is the White Stripes? Then I hung out with this truck driver who looked very attractive from his pictures but he wasn't at all what I expected him to be when we met- he was a small dude.... like I really just want to find someone to replace Chris but I don't think I can, he is the nicest, kindest, gentlest guy ever, he's attractive and funny and bright.. he's just him and I'm mad that there aren't more people like him. I guess I should be happy that he still wants to be friends but I'm not. I don't think that I care that I don't have very many friends right now... I want something deeper, I want affection, intimacy, someone whose always there, someone to hang out with everyday.. I want Chris, everyone else sucks.