thanks!

I think your reaction to Lolita needs to be evaluated as a way of getting insight into how your mind (both rational and emotional if one can talk about distinct minds...) works. My own reaction to Lolita was influenced by the narrator (I did not read the book but listened to an audio book 6 months ago

Lolita [Audiobook, Unabridged]: Amazon.com: Books

Jeremy Irons is the narrator.

In his narration, the book is basically a satire.

But I know many people who have read it themselves and who view it as a piece of "serious" writing.

Also, there is a researcher at UC Berkeley who views Lolita as a work of perverse Shakespeare scholarship (??? I have not read but plan to read it one day - here is the link:

Amazon.com: Nabokov, Perversely (9780801448201): Eric Naiman: Books).

Basically, the book is complex and very much open to interpretation, but all of that is secondary to your "case" - I think you need to think about why the book evoked such a strong emotional effect on you, and, based on that analysis, you will know yourself much better.