Hi Introm, No I do not try to seek revenge or get back at them. Not consciously, at least. I have gone for periods of not speaking, but that was because no matter what I said, they didnt csre. I was talking to a wall. Or even better, teying to scale a barbed wire fence without getting hurt.
I was so desperare, I even tried to talk to "extended" family members for support but they didnt want anything to do with it.
I no longer have a relationship with my family because of their abuse. And although it was hard at first and went against everything that I truly ever wanted (to have people in my life that really cared, loved and respected me), I am better off without them in my life.
At some point, we have to choose to stop letting them hurt us.