That's not true. Don't deny your own pain and suffering. Those with external scars are in as much pain as those with internal scars. You're denying yourself of what you really want. Listen to yourself. Have you read what you wrote? How would you feel if another person said this to you, said that they feel like they're worthless. That's not true! Stop it! You know you don't really want to get fatter and fatter just watching Netflix all day. And you're not feeling sorry for yourself and whining, you're reaching out for the compassion and support that you need. And that is normal. That is a human thing. So is masterbating, wanting to feel good. Everyone wants to feel good. But that's not the only thing that will make you feel good. Inspire yourself again. Find the inspiration once more. You won't find it in the basement. I think you'll find it where the sun is shining. Try taking a walk outside and just feel the wind, breathe in the air, look around, what do you notice? Just simply observe. And you can do it. Don't think about it, just do it. Go in your PJ's if you have to. Bite yourself if you have to, slap yourself if you have to, just don't think, just walk. Even now, whatever time of day it is, just go outside.

Because if you've lived 30 years, that means you could live another 30 years. And that means, you do have willpower. When there's a will, there's a way. You can do it. Don't think, just do. Don't think, just do.