I am so sorry. That was horrific. It was NOT your fault; you were a child and had no defense. You might want to consider writing a letter of "restorative justice"---even though he is dead....the letter says: This is what you did, this is how it made me feel. Get all of the anger, rage and pain out. Hugs, Nicole

You matter a WHOLE lot; you are as valuable as everyone on the planet. You are still here to tell your story....keep talking and getting the poison out. You might want to ask your t about writing a letter of restorative justice.

If you knew of a little girl who was violated as horrifically as you were, I am guessing you would tell her she is valuable and it was NEVER her fault.....YOU are that little girl.....try to love and cherish her.