I can't help it .. I always have smile on my face I laugh I help others
yet all they do is mock me, talk behind my back .. I dont have any friend and I don't want any..
I feel humiliated. my self worth is gone..
I wish I could be mean or rude but all I do is smile like an idiot.
I get back from college cry the next day act as if nothing happened.
to them nice=weak
So, how can I be rude ?

please help I'm completely lost..