hey thanks for your comments, i know im a bit late replying, took me quiet a while to surrender to the program fully but i know have a great sponsor and have started working the steps, i picked up my 30 day keyring this week, and even though it took me a while to string together more than a week at a time, im starting to really love my recovery and put it in front of stuff thats not always as important. 30 days is more than i ever thought i could be clean and sober for and i am grateful to everyone that helped me get this far and pray that i can continue this way.