Hello....this is about my ex. We decided to kiss for closure. i know it sounds weird, but it sounded like a good idea at that time. And he had feelings for someone else, who also felt the same. But he still couldn't move on from me. So we sort of decided to move on together with that action.

A friend of mine asked if we kissed, and i did not deny it. She was in love with the girl (who likes my ex) and she decided to tell her.

I have never felt so alone in my life. My ex, my friend, the ex's possible gf, they were all my friends. Now, I'm going to lose all of them. Because of one tiny mistake..

I was going through a lot of intense feelings, and it has not been easy:
1) http://forums.psychcentral.com/copin...nd-repair.html
2) http://forums.psychcentral.com/relat...31-losing.html
3) http://forums.psychcentral.com/relat...-now-what.html

It's funny how I'm the one who suffered the most throughout....should be the one to die first in this complicated predicament..was I wrong? I wanted to be happy for him. I wanted to things to be okay. But my friend just had to drag this up, assuming things about our relationship. I.....am not going to trust anyone...ever again...Just one mistake...

And it's A levels...in a few days...with these feelings inside of me now...I will not be able to study....I will fail. Everything is gone. Everything. I'm sorry..if you took the time to read all that...I am grateful...