having lots of bad thoughts today (most of them about ending it all) and about how badly i'm treated by people

i also just got an email from someone who randomly asked me about my sister.. which like, is freaking me out- i'm thinking well.... who do i know in america that's called bill?. hmm... longest 2 hours of my life while i wait for his response to say how he knows me- and if he knows me. it may be nothing

hope everyone has a great day