I've apologized countless times and he's always been open and forgiving. Once I come down from my "high" I feel completely ashamed. No one deserves to be treated the way I treat him. I do the same with my family, especially my dad. I hate that I'm not in control of my emotions and the fact that I let them consume me. He's mentioned that I should talk to someone and maybe I should. Maybe this was a long time coming.

Does anyone with diagnosed BPD ever feel this way?