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Originally Posted by HealingTimes
Rainbow, have you ever considered trying to learn distraction techniques to cope with the urge to look up your T?
I mean like similar to people who self-injure, binge eat etc? It may sound like a strange idea, but it sounds like you could do with putting some practical steps into place if this happens again.
I really think that you should discuss this with your T, regardless of the embarrassment.
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I could do that. It's just that part of me, a bigger part than I want to admit, WANTED to see those photos of T, and the comments to her. I wanted to know what others think of her, and I'm glad she's well-liked. I like looking at her photo. I know it's this whole addiction, thing, and yes--she'll probably be "glad" to talk to me about addiction, since she just took a course on it. I don't know if I can, though. I hate disappointing her so much. I'd rather tell her about painting, and doing well.
I don't want her to know I cheated, and how I wanted to do it, and couldn't stop myself. But she's my T so I have to tell her, I guess. Oh, yuck. I don't feel good about this. It hurts my stomach.