Hello Simon. I am sorry that you are going through a rough time. It is very hurtful to relive the past at times, even though it is good and helpful to be able to talk to others that are not judgemental and hurtful. Life is like a catch 22 Simon you have to take the good and the bad as well. You also do not have to feel that you have to be iso;lated from othere here at PC because we have all been where you are at to some degree and we are all looking for nonjudgemental peopl to talk to and relate to in our lives. I wish I could take the pain away that you are having, but sometimes living through the pain brings out the best in people. What happened to you was wrong but you need to get help in releasing the anger in a positive manner in therapy, you cant change what happened, but you can be more positive in learning to deal with the anger, if you get a good therapist. I am very sorry that you were misunderstood, but you know in your heart you did the right thing, and you ned to focus on the good that you did not the sordid misunderstanding that occured after the fact. I think you know that as well, but you may need help just with focusing on the truth of the matter instead of the unjustification that happened afterwards. Heroism At Best Is Someone Elses Sordid Displacement.
Simon we have all been there it is up to you to stay in today, and stop delving in the PAST. You may want to get a therapist that Deals with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, to help you stay in today and set realistic goals for the future, so that you can move forward in a productive manner. Medication helps as well, to help the mood swings and the anger. You owe it to yourself to be the person that you are without letting this One incident DICTATE your life. Say I did the right thing, everytime this comes up and try to live in today. You didnt do anything wrong, in helping another person, But YOU Simon have to believe in yourself and you need help in doing that from a professional therapist. Take care I hope to see you in chat again soon, and I hope that you are seeing a therapist soon and working on your issues. Sincerely Soidhonia