Hi everyone,

For a while now (a year or two) I've had what I would call an "abnormal mood" condition, which I used to assume was Borderline Personality Disorder. I've never bothered to go to a Psych because, like a lot of people who function normally, I've felt it's not really necessary.

Regardless, this mood condition used to alternate such that the slightest knock to my competence in anything I cared about would make me feel depressed for a matter of hours. I'm fairly sure normal people don't get so heavily affected by such simple things. Conversely, I also had times where I felt very "good" and "calm" about things, almost too peaceful. I just waited for something to wrong in such times because I felt like I was coasting too easily.

Of late, however, the depressive element seems to have diminished considerably. The more salient issue these days (if you can even call it that) is that I'm "too happy" at times. I know that may sound odd to normal people, but I also know that normal people don't erratically and spontaneously feel euphoric for no reason. Some days I literally walk down the street with a smile on my face for no good reason. If I were an onlooker and saw someone with that expression I'd assume they'd just fallen in love or something, but I have no actual "reason" to feel that happy, often I just do.

It's kind of like someone slipped me medication to cause dopamine spikes or something. This has been happening more frequently lately. I can have multiple days in a row where I feel very happy, perhaps averaging at least a day a week. Mostly, however I'm either happy or neutral.

Take note, this isn't normal happiness either, rather it seems to follow the "delusional" (but not psychotic) type of "euphoria" that someone would experience on a drug. I start thinking that every little aspect of the world is amazing, I start feeling like I can accomplish far more than I currently do and that perhaps I should try and champion a new global cause, or start a worldwide business. That there is so much to do in this world and that I could push myself to do much, much more. Now clearly this is delusional, however at the time that doesn't bother me and anything and everything seems possible.

As I previously mentioned, I used to think I had BPD, however, I have no abandonment issues, no history of abuse, I'm pretty confident in general and am happy on my own. Moreover, I don't self-harm or act impulsively (I feel the urge to when I'm euphoric though). To me this only leaves Cyclothymia or Bipolar Disorder, however, my mood swings don't seem extreme or long-lasting enough to classify me as likely being Bipolar. Thus, I'm at a loss and was wondering what others had to say about this. Most of you likely have more experience with this than I, and as such I would appreciate any input.

Thanks.