Hello all,

I am a diagnosed schizoaffective alcoholic who participates in AA.


When I FIRST GOT SOBER, my appreciation for music increased ten fold. Artists like The Oscar Peterson Trio, Count Basie, and The Beach Boys would do my brains in. I would begin to visualize the notes as mountains (high notes) and valleys (low notes). I understood this music like I never had before.

When I first started taking medication, I felt as if this was being dampened. Ergo, I would frequently mess with my dose to try to regain such a creative, imaginative state.

I would take my medication begrudgingly.

I had it told to me that this was a sort of relapse. I wasn't trying to get high, I was trying to achieve something that was entitled to me.

Anyone do anything simmilar?

Thanks