Granite, you are doing a much better job of communicating with your therapist. It is so hard to verbalize those old memories and abuses, partly because it was just so painful and traumatic, partly because over time those memories have become perhaps unclear or fragmented just because of time and distance (and partly because we make very unconscious decisions about how we remember things as a means of self-protection).

As far as what to do with all this information, I'd say just keep spewing it out. My experience it that is incredibly difficult and painful to verbalize, but verbalizing what happened takes some of the power of those memories away. It sort of neutralizes it piece by piece so that I can start unraveling not just the memories, but how they affected me then AND how they still affect me now.

You ARE making progress, and your T sees that. She's working to keep you moving forward with your progress instead of allowing you to regress back into your silence, and you are really beginning to respond and open up. I know it is terrifying right now, but you are doing the work. Good for you.