T and I talked about my inhibitions and shame about my body. We both agreed I still see myself as about 14 or 15 when I learned about the "birds and the bees," as we used to call it. I didn't think people really did that! Of course I'm an adult now and have children, so I know differently, but somehow I'm still stuck there. I don't mean I didn't learn when I was younger, but I didn't get the whole picture until I was a teenager.

On the other hand, I want to feel good and want to be satisfied. We talked about my RL, not about her, and it was embarrassing. She offered suggestions and I told her why they won't work. Then she said "you have choices" which upset me. She always tells me that. Today I said "I'm not you. I'm not independent and I'm not getting a divorce!"

It was a difficult session.