My biggest issue over time has been the inability to have normal friendships. I believe that someone inside has some trauma based rule for me that I am not allowed to have close friends. It is too scarey. This makes no logical sense, which is SOOO frustrating! I make due by having acquaintences at work and allowing therapy to meet my intimacy needs as much as it can. Maybe some day I will get communication with the part of me who fears friendship, and we can work through this. For now, I'm just stuck.