I keep going through phases where I become super clingy, my six year old is the most dominant of the 'others' and I know I am taxing on my treatment providers.

Then for a few hours or even days if I'm lucky, things will seem fine, I will seem balanced, whole, healing, positive, and won't really be aware of the others.

Then I will get angry and not want to talk to anyone, lean on anyone, acknowledge my issues, and everything triggers me to anger.

I keep thinking I'm growing, learning, healing, and then realize it was only a phase. I hate this. It's like the skills I try to learn when I'm feeling down are only learned by the whole, balanced part, who doesn't need the skills really anyway, and not by the parts who really need one. I'm soooo frustrated!!

I don't know what I'm looking for really. Maybe just someone who gets it.

How do I learn skills so that the parts that need it the most can learn them and use them? I feel like I will never find balance, unless it's by switching alters.