I guess this is melodramatic, but I am sure that there is something wrong with me. I don't know if there's a name, and nothing I've looked at seems to fit.

Basically, I have an extremely difficult time conversing with others and making friends. For the longest time, I didn't have any friends. Mostly because I was unable to talk to people. In 7th grade, I counted it as a "good day" if I managed to say one sentence to another person that wasn't the answer to a yes or no question. In fact, I didn't have any friends at all until maybe 9th grade, and that's a stretch. When I say friends here, I mean that I was able to make small talk with them for maybe a minute or so before I ran out of things to say. I eventually did learn how to have a conversation, but I'm still really bad at it, and can only really talk to a very specific, small group of people.

It's not that I have anxiety about talking or anything, or worry that I'll say the wrong thing, it's just that I literally don't know how to answer something to continue a conversation. I don't have problems answering questions in class or with public speaking.

I'm sorry, this doesn't sound like anything super bad, but I know there's something wrong with me. I can't relate to people at all. There are things other people can immediately pick up on that I just can't see. I'm on the volleyball team at my school, and once a guy mentioned some dynamic that goes on in our team while talking to me and some other girls on the team. The other girls immediately agreed with him like it was the most obvious thing in the world, but what he could see from one game I couldn't figure out from an entire season of working with those people. I can't tell when people are angry at others, I don't get clues or hints that people try to give me, and I always feel like I just can't relate to anyone about anything. At this point I'm just suicidal and depressed. However, I wish I could understand if there's an underlying cause of all of this, or if it really is just me.