Wow. I do try. Doesn't help. It just feels like I keep trying, and nothing gets better. Family, work, and health issues all bombard me. But in real life, who wants to hear people complain all the time. And the areas I'd complain about --. All three of those areas are a total mess right now, and aren't those three of the areas most people find their purpose for living in. Instead my health sucks ( but doctors have nothing to diagnosis, I have no family, and my job is in jeopardy. Dealing with these stresses, and then coming home to an empty house day after day is exhausting. I just want to give up and sleep. Finally, some people would tell me to get out of the house and find something to do to take my mind off of it. Unfortunately, its winter where I live, and I can't do that either because I'm pretty much home bound because of my health issues. I'm running out of stamina to keep trying. So I try to keep it together, and fake that I'm strong enough to handle my restrictions. That seems the only choice. It's just eats away at the inside is all. I'm not sure people scan understand how frustrating and isolating it is to have health issues that isolate you further, especially when you have no family to assist you with them.