Maybe I'm not exerting enough energy? I mean, since I'm not contacting him everyday like what the norm is.

This is the best and closest I've had to a relationship, I think I'll be fine if it's one-sided. And he just may be really shy.

I mean, why ever respond at all and say that he did want to hang out with me/go on a date with me if he doesn't have interest? I don't understand what someone would get out of that.

Although, I think he likes me as a person, but now that I think about it, I don't think he's physically attracted to me. At least not anymore. I probably wore too much make-up or it was the clothes I was wearing. That was stupid…I even looked at myself in the mirror beforehand and thought I looked like I was going on a date with a girl. I mean, I know better. My only chance for anything even resembling a date in years, and I blow it with something selfish and stupid. Or maybe it's my dietary concerns…I know that would annoy me if I were him. Or my personality…or things I've alluded to about me that aren't a positive. I just wish I didn't have an attraction for almost exclusively men right now…this just seems cruel. I mean, if I'm ONLY attractive to girls, why can't I just be gay? Hell, he probably thinks I'm gay.