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Originally Posted by Sam2
Depression often comes with a feeling of being numb inside. There is no interest in anything, normal senses seem dull and you feel like a ghost.
There is actually a rare disorder called copard's syndrome where the person truly beieves that they are dead. Its extremely rare though, so I wouldn't worry about it.
When I was at my worst, I can remember feeling like I didn't exist to the point where I would cross the street with cars coming. I believed that if I didn't look at them, they wouldn't be real and therefore couldn't hit me.
Its hard being stuck in a slump like that. Soon it becomes a vicious cycle. You don't want to go out, so you stay in and play video games which isolate you from people which in turn makes you feel worse. If you don't already have a therapist, its probably time to get one. We can't always climb out of the hold by ourselves. If you are living alone, and able to, you might consider getting a dog. Its not a cure, but they are very sensitive to your emotions and give you something to care about and something that needs you. It won't solve your problem, but it will keep you from being alone.
Sam2
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I wish I could ask for help, but I am allways loosing track on what I feel and I always tend to minimize it (???)... I have been asked so many times if I am fine and I can't say I am, if I say it seems like a dangerous situation, but saying I'm fine is a reflex...and I think that fearing the others, being disapointed by them and being unable to trust them, and social anxyety brought me here. The problem with me is that I don't know where depression begins and depersonalization ends. I always felt strange, detached, always. During most of my life I just could think that I was strange and not normal and I couldn't realize what was wrong with me. Why I was always daydreaming, couldn't get my feet on the ground, seamed distanct and slow and felt distanct. And it was very hard to put this feelings into words, since I never knew me other way, but one day I get it, I realize that I felt my life as it was a dream and reality wasn't real. But why my thoughs don't move, why it seams I switch my boton to the off, I switch my thoughs and there isn't anyone happening inside my head, it is not only the outside world that doesn't seam to exist, my inner voice is very quiet too. I just go through life without asking or wondering. I can't strange myself when I look in the mirror or I can't get imediatly to the conclusion that other people are unreal because there is no one inside me to think about it. This comes whith feeling numb or is this a simptom of depression it self or is this a thing that doesn't happens in any of them.
If I don't exist how can I get help for me, how can I get help for problems which aren't real?