I'm sorry for you pain. It is a shame that your girlfriend can't see through the damage, but I also, understand where she is coming from. It is hard to forgive when pain has been so ingrained. I commend you on you walk to get better and one of the first things you will have to do is forgive yourself. That was the tough part for me, because I have been on both sides of this fence. And I find forgiving myself was the hardest part. Continue to get the help you need and rebuild your life with greater understanding. Good luck to you.