You are exactly where you are supposed to be. Nothing happens before it is meant to be.

Those were not wasted years. Those were years you spent before you were willing to trust someone with your hurts and disappointments.

I have spent 5+ years chit chatting with my T and just recently (2 weeks ago) was able to expose my "true" self. That was painful for me and my anxiety level was very high. I took several deep breaths before I was able to reveal to my T my true self with all my hurts/pains from my past and trust that my T wouldn't reject me as had other since I was 3 yrs old.

My love and acceptance for who you are at this time in your life and my best wishes for whom you will become.