I'm so sorry, junkDNA.

I know how it is. My kitty Freckles, I had her since I was 11 years old and she was my cat for 14 years. she was the last of the old barn cat line from my grandma's farm. Anyway, I had to rush her to the ER one night and they did the same thing to me. She was really sick and I had to decide right then. I have her ashes in this pretty wooden box and they made a stamp of her paw in clay for me. So, I know how hard it is.