Not really. Not by any of the counselors I've spoken to. Most of them seem to not think it's much of an issue. Do you know how many people in our country are daily smokers? lol. I'm not sure if you mean you are judging me. Not really sure what you meant by that quote but I was looking for support and direct communication. But I will share a little bit more because it is complicated. I grew up taking many many medications for adhd. I've taken at least 8 or 9 medications over a span of 8-10 years. Some anti depressants and medications such as adderall, focalin, strattera, vyvanse. These basically drug kids out. Especially if you are put on the doses I was put. I felt numb and like a zombie. I acted different. I'd feel nervous all the time and no one monitored it one bit. Most of the problems I've had with depression and anxiety stemmed from those drugs and the side effects. I didn't smoke weed at the time though. Not until I was older. Long term use of drugs like those have very strong links to depression. Of course you can't prove it 100 percent but the evidence is staggering. And if you think about it, when a drug is used everyday while the brain is developing and that drug is adding dopamine to the system, of course it's going to screw up the chemicals in the brain once you are an adult and stop taking it. You can't even join the army if you admit to taking stimulants before the age of 12 because they think that it may make people "chemically imbalanced". All the problems I'm dealing with started long before I smoked weed. The nervous, compulsive habit I have. It's kinda like a tick. It was caused by the medication focalin. It is listed as a side effect and started the same time I started taking it. When I took medications it was hard to talk to people and really affected my personality and social skills which is the stuff I was originally posting about. It seems it is the trigger for depression for me often. Weed's been pretty helpful with my anxiety. It's used medically for anxiety in many places in the world. You can believe it or not but everyone I know, even my family would admit that my anxiety has improved greatly once I started smoking. I've taken breaks from smoking for long periods of time to see if it changes anything but it doesn't. I use a vaporizing often so I'm not actually harming my body or lungs in the process. It doesn't affect any of this too much. But when I get to real dark places or start to feel an anxiety attack it really helps me. It's not a permanent solution but it's the best one I've got right now. That's why I'm seeking out advice.