First I want to say Thank you to all that replied, taking time to explain to me how YOU (individually) define faith and how you came to realize, at least for yourself how your faith is so strong and how YOU came to know He exsists.

I have always felt ill at ease when it comes to religion. Personally, I feel that I have kept an open mind on this subject. I have asked my step father about his religion (he is mormon). I have asked a co-worker about it, she is a buddist. I am curious about religion, all religion, and even more curious how it feels to know, without a doubt, in my heart how it would feel to to really know he exsists. I suppose I have never felt such a connection to something like that, ever. Nothing as strong as what you describe. I dunno. Even saying that freaks me out a little. I'm always afraid I will be punished for saying something wrong and I will be punished. So, if I am feeling that way, I must beleive he is real on some level, right? This is confusing, to me at least anyway. I guess I am looking for something to hold on to, something safe. I dont know. So many people fing GOD, or a higher power of some sort comforting, safe and peaceful. I just want to experience that and have no clue of how to go about it. I'm lost. It's like I want to beleive, but I don't know how too.

Despite my feelings, I have prayed before. Mostly during the time when I was at the bottom of my depression. I prayed so much and never were my prayers answered. I only wanted him to make my brain quiet down so I could sleep, even a hour would have been nice. But, it never happened.