I'm sorry you are feeling so bad Jen. Please try to not be too hard on yourself. I know it can be extremely hard but we do slip up sometimes. But it is possible to get back up again. I know the voices are strong now but they will fade again in time.

Can you remember some of the strategies you used when you stopped last time? What helped you stop? They might be able to help you get up again now. I know that you mentioned that the voices are stronger now but they might still help to relieve some of the intensity.