Hey,

Kinda nervous at the moment.

I've been talking to a friend, well, I'd describe her as a soul mate from another life. And when I've told her about what's going on with me, she's told me I might have reactive depression. I trust her, she has bipolar, so in my head she knows what she's talking about.

Well, she's told me to get help, and to get myself sorted but I'm actually so worried.

I'm a very reserved guy, who represses feelings very well. Life hit me hard last month and I self destructed nearly, it was only because of my best mate that I'm still here.

I feel so terrible about me! I have a pure soul but I'm always let down, after giving all in relationships. I don't know why.

I have no idea what will happen when I get help, it's making me so worried. I know it's something I have to do for me but I'm avoiding it, I just don't want them judging me because I already feel like a complete failure.

Please give me something? Advise or support?

I've never felt so on my own..

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