While listening to an author speak on the radio, I discovered just how much I don't understand emotions and motives. The lady was able to appreciate things in life that I cannot see. I realized at that moment, I am wired to observe the material world, such as mushrooms, rather than human behavior. Since this is innate I never realized it until now.

Now, I know exactly what autism means.

No wonder, I have so much difficulty navigating relationships. I cannot interpret the implied message. How can I anticipate what another person is thinking or going to do, without using my personal experiences as a reference? Almost all people have been nasty towards me so I automatically expect they are going to use or insult me.