Holding two opposing viewpoints about the same thing is maddening. I'm not being flippant, but that really is how life is in my experience. Nothing and nobody is all one thing.

Having the good around doesn't negate the bad, and having the bad around doesn't negate the good. They both are there.

You decided in this situation that the bad was intolerable. Perhaps it would then be easier to say that the whole thing was bad, but it clearly wasn't and you can't say that. There was a lot of good.

The pain, I think lies, in the desperate attempt to reconcile the two opposing thoughts into one cohesive narrative that makes sense. That might be impossible to do, as they exist simultaneously and defy combination.

This could be a great opportunity to practice patience and acceptance of things not making sense, but them being okay anyway.

A mental exercise that helped me is to picture the good literally (well figuratively I guess) in one hand, and the bad the other. Hold them in front of you and, in your mind's eye, simply allow them to be there - separate and distinct, but okay.