Feel like I will never get better... Was so severely depressed that my Dr. wanted to hospitalize me, and I was just able to convince her not to, because a friend of mine was coming to the city (I just moved there 1.5 year ago) to help me (I scared her).

I had to take a medical leave from work, leave the city and move back with my parents. I am seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist and trying to find a med that works, but I get horrible side effects.

the psychiatrist finally decided to give me a minimal dose of another anti-dep to see if I can avoid getting bad side effects, but at this dose I can feel myself sinking again.

I'm scared. Scared I'll never find a med that doesn't kill me (trying the 4th one now). Scared I'll never get better. Scared I'll never be able to go back to work.

Don't know what to do....