will I ever get better?

Feel like I will never get better... Was so severely depressed that my Dr. wanted to hospitalize me, and I was just able to convince her not to, because a friend of mine was coming to the city (I just moved there 1.5 year ago) to help me (I scared her).

I had to take a medical leave from work, leave the city and move back with my parents. I am seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist and trying to find a med that works, but I get horrible side effects.

the psychiatrist finally decided to give me a minimal dose of another anti-dep to see if I can avoid getting bad side effects, but at this dose I can feel myself sinking again.

I'm scared. Scared I'll never find a med that doesn't kill me (trying the 4th one now). Scared I'll never get better. Scared I'll never be able to go back to work.

Don't know what to do....

((((((( ouch )))))))))
Keep trying, try not to slip off. If you can think you will never get better, then you can think that you will get better. I really hope that this new med will help. And be honest and brave when you go out into the day, and just believe in yourself. All of us here at pc believe in you. It can be so hard to tell yourself that you can do it, but try. I know what you mean about being scared. But everyone gets scared, and those fears may pass. I hope you get better and can find a med.
We are here for you whenever you need it.
Good Luck
Lots of hugs
-Megan-

I have a forced mental holiday. Don't know what to do with myself. I find it scary that things got so bad that it was forced upon me. Life seems way too pointless right now...

(((((((((Ouch))))))))))))) It does get better. Maybe not to a perfect reality but not any where near as bad as you're feeling right now. Please, trust me on this. Try to focus on just putting one foot in front of the other. It doesn't matter how slow you are moving or whether or not you're really headed to anywhere.
It does get better. I promise.

hard to see the light...

Hello,
My name is Lenny and I noticed you mentioned you are scared a lot. I have been treated for depression for the past 15 years and being scared is not a bad thing, it just feels like crap. Don't let society make you wrong for being scared. Being scared won't kill you. It will pass and you will find some course of action that will work. In side of you, you know what to do. It may take awhile to get to it but it is there. You will develope the courage to follow your heart.

You are not wrong, bad, a mistake, and any other negitive thing you head is trying to tell you. Recovery from the effects of depression is not easy but with help, good Doctors, friends, and support you can make it.

Peace,

Lenny

Wow, these are all really nice posts.

I just wanted to say, hang in there, ouch. I am in the exact same boat as you. The last three years have been mostly down for me -- up a little bit -- then, CRASH! down for a long time. So I, too, feel completely stuck in the depression. I too, wonder, will I ever get better?

All we can try to do is keep holding on & keep trying. Just our best. That's it.

Take care. Cool nickname, btw. Like it.

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