So what's therapy going to do? Show me how to hide who I am so I can make fake friends? I actually have friends who don't hate me yet who actually know how weird I am and they actually give me feedback, like when I'm doing something well or not and give me a chance to apologize if I said something that was unintentionally offensive. I don't see how therapy can do much better. It'll just cost my family more money. And how unfair is that? Especially when I get better "therapy" for free.

And I wouldn't be worried about getting laid if I didn't think about it all the time and dream about it very vividly almost every night. I can't escape from it. I'd probably be someone people would want to be around if I got laid.

But people know that they'll be judged by society if they've been with an outcast. My only chance is with other outcasts. I guess I've just been too weird for the people I've liked. Almost makes me want to be weirder—I mean, what do I have to lose at this point? It might be fun to see the cookie-cutter normals squirm.