You have a lot going on, no wonder you are stressed and confused. It can take quite a bit of time and trying different meds to find the right ones that help. I'm finally getting relief after battling this bout of depression for over a year. I can't remember the name of all the drugs I've tried, but it is finally paying off.

I only battle Bipolar II. You have a lot more going on. It's going to take time whether through medication or therapy. I'm sorry you feel like you have lost yourself, but I look at it as I haven't found my true self yet. I'm still searching.

Good luck to you whatever you decide,