I am with a man. He is great person, but I am messing things up with him. I think I have Antisocial Personality Disorder and I dont want to get close or trust or anything with him. And with me doing that it is pushing him away and he is so far away. I want to be with him so bad. But he will not accept my kid and does not want kids and I do. I dont know if I can go through life without anymore kids. Can someone help me out and let me know. He said that he might want kids but not with me because I wont open up and talk with him or anything and I dont know why I am like this. I have had alot happen. I got pregnant at 18 then my sons dad left. He used to hit me and stuff. He came in and out of our lifes when he would get sick of me he would cheat then come back when he was sick of her. Then after him came the man I told him that i loved him and he jumped out of my balcany just to get away from me. I am thinking maybe that is what it is but with my disorder I was thinking that could be it to. I am not to sure what does everyone think. Also thought I would add that I am bisexual maybe that will help out some to let me know what you think thanks so much everyone.