NO (!) that is a really strong thing to do, reaching out/trying to get for help when you need it!! Total respect!!
GP's, well not all of them have as much knowledge in these areas which is why referrals to.........psychiatrist, psychologists, counselors, therapists......... and at least he admitted he couldn't suggest anything instead of coming up with something "off the wall".
Sounds like your psychiatrist isn't "the best in the country" though. Although I'd say you've no reason at all to be uncomfortable/ashamed in meetings for turning down medication. If he doesn't "get" why then that's his problem not yours and now (and make it clear to him if you need to) it's his job to give you help regardless. Your decision doesn't have to make sense to him for him to try to help you as long as it makes sense to you.
That said......you know......medication may be something that might help you be in the position to more easily manage what's going on for you.........and with the right medication you can still be able to be "yourself" which is maybe something you're having difficulties holding onto right now???? But anyway, something to think about and discuss when you're ready?
SO if the psychiatrist is going to be saying he's stuck without you taking medication then it's his job (and remind hi if you need to) to get you help from someone who can. And I don't know..........you may have some opinions on this, but maybe mental health nurse, outreach team, psychologist or a counselor?
But if it's hard to talk to your psychiatrist maybe write things down before your appointment/s so as you can just "give it to him" (read out) directly. I do get that it may be difficult to talk about things especially after seeing someone just a couple of times and especially if you feel that they're unsympathetic but it's you who matters at the end of the day so just make sure you're pushing for the help he needs to be giving you.
Still till then, maybe it's one day at a time and dredging up every little thing that can help you get by, feel better about where you're at/where you're working towards.
I didn't check if you have any friends who could help giving you a little distraction if you need it either, sorry. But still anything to occupy you or focus/interest you?? And there are always helplines (if not a friend?) if you feel able to let out what's going on for you.
And again total respect on trying for help!!! Everything you can do!!!
Best wishes
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Alison