I guess it's just devastating to barely learn what love is and having it taken away from me.

This is always what happens though…the other person just wants to be friends/isn't attracted to me even though in the same breath they say how attractive/pretty/whatever I am, how good of a conversationalist I am, how smart I am, how hilarious and entertaining I am (I make moving day fun…and that ain't easy) and sometimes I even clearly have confidence despite a lifetime of never being wanted for anything (until very recently…but never really wanted for relationships).

And the only complaints about me?
1. I should be skinnier (I'm a size 10, size 13 in juniors…I still wear juniors and children's shirts…that's how fat I apparently am).
2. I'm inexperienced/not in the right place in my life. My bad for not sleeping with everyone I possibly could. Sorry about that. Not. My bad for STILL being a virgin…I'm so sorry I'm SHY. Everyone wants to be taught and never be a teacher.