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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
I guess it's just devastating to barely learn what love is and having it taken away from me.
This is always what happens though…the other person just wants to be friends/isn't attracted to me even though in the same breath they say how attractive/pretty/whatever I am, how good of a conversationalist I am, how smart I am, how hilarious and entertaining I am (I make moving day fun…and that ain't easy) and sometimes I even clearly have confidence despite a lifetime of never being wanted for anything (until very recently…but never really wanted for relationships).
And the only complaints about me?
1. I should be skinnier (I'm a size 10, size 13 in juniors…I still wear juniors and children's shirts…that's how fat I apparently am).
2. I'm inexperienced/not in the right place in my life. My bad for not sleeping with everyone I possibly could. Sorry about that. Not. My bad for STILL being a virgin…I'm so sorry I'm SHY. Everyone wants to be taught and never be a teacher.
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I still have that voice in my head that talks to me about my weight and outer appearance, even though I know it should hush up.
But you are the size you are supposed to be right now. It is not fat in the least.
And if someone is making you feel like you need to be in a different place sexual experience wise? Perhaps they are not the person (or people) you should invest a lot of time in. (It can be challenging. I just withdrew from a group of friends that could not get past my not drinking. Most fascinating thing they could find about me.)
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