As for myself, again.

I've felt unheard/ignored a lot in my short life so far. I had a mother who thought I was just paranoid when I kept telling her my head's not right. I remember telling her maybe I need a psychologist to cope with my troubles, the response I got was 'nonsense, you're perfect in every way'. When I got older, I'd get pretty confrontational about this, I'd tell them "You're afraid of the truth, aren't you, you just want to be in your bubble where you keep believing i'm perfect?", she wouldn't answer that but I could see it in her eyes.

I can't blame them, and I'm glad to say they've changed now, it's not too late, they tell me my happiness comes first, and support me a lot more.

I'm going through a particularly tough period in my life right now, and there are people I care for, and I just don't seem to be getting enough attention from them.

There's this one person who I can't see eye to eye anymore, I've tried to reconcile, but i get turned down or ignored, I repeatedly keep trying, but this person seems to not know, how much I'm willing to put the past behind. I've apologized, and told the person I have no ill feelings towards him. He doesn't talk to me. He ignores me and even fails to acknowledge my presence, It's like I'm a ghost. The reason we don't see eye to eye anymore, is actually quite petty, this person is *known* to hold grudges. It's hurting me very much inside, I actually dream about talking to him again. I can't hold grudges against anyone.

I'm tired of trying to make it up to him. We were close once, we had no differences, people told me he holds grudges, but I refused to believe them until it happened to me. He's not a bad person, he is in fact, very kind, and I see a lot of myself in him.

I'm rambling on and on... sorry...