I understand Josie. Not ridiculous, stupid or any of the things that enter your mind about your situation.

When it comes to talking to people, there has to be a trust there first. My suggestion would be to not put so much pressure on yourself to being able to reveal and express your deepest concerns with someone. A true friend will understand no matter what, and if you slowly let your guard down, it will come, you'll find someone that you trust enough and you'll automatically feel comfortable with sharing more with them as time goes on.

I don't know if that makes sense but i hope so.

*hugs*
S4