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Old Mar 21, 2014, 12:02 PM
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No it isn't, I don't want to hurt anyone. I'm sorry that I sound selfish, by say that I want to kill myself. It just feels like, no one really cares, It sucks. This depression just really sucks, I hate it. I am becoming horrible person. I really do mot try to ac tlike this, I am sorry for being so mean.
No no you are not being mean. You are in the grips of a very bad depression and it is not your fault. It is the depression that is causing those thoughts. They are just untrue thoughts. That is how depression is.

I know exactly how you feel trust me. I have been suicidal and had it all planned out. I prayed every night that God would take me so I didn't have to. I felt as if everyone would be better off without me. That I was nothing but a burden. It is the depression.
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