I too feel like everything is about to fall apart. I am emotionally drained, physically tired and mentally overwhelmed. And it ALL has to do with work and I hate it because I never thought it would be like this.

I feel like everything that is supposed to be good that will come into my life is an illusion just waiting to be shattered by my stupidity. I feel like the worst person in the world and I am finding it very hard to shake that feeling. I feel like I am about to walk into another potentially painful situation and I feel so alone, despite having reached out to numerous friends and concerned persons that are trying to encouraging me to keep pushing despite the outcome. I am trying sooo hard to be positive but its so difficult because I feel like I have inadvertently created a damaging reputation for myself, and all I just want is for people to understand me. To understand that despite it all I am not a bad person and I don't like hurting/lying to people. And it hurts me that one of the person's I trusted in and believed in the most, is the very person who is showing me that maybe she never really understood.