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Old Mar 31, 2014, 05:47 PM
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Hi everyone. I'm sorry for not being here for awhile. I have just been so focused on getting the house ready for the move. That will still take a long time. I hope everyone is doing better. I'm also sorry that I don't reply to other's posts as often to give advice that often. Its because most of the time I can't figure out what to say, and also I don't want to give the wrong advice. Also, I don't socialize just to socialize. Sometimes it goes weeks or even months in between calls to my friends. I don't know if its due to my illnesses or what. Just remember part of having autism is having a difficult time socializing and not knowing how to do it properly.

As for me, however, my life still sucks. Mom is real to the extreme. She is sick.... again. Constant problems. My mom still has to have dangerous life-threatening surgery. Now, the doctor has backed off because of the high risk to her life. We would have to wait until we move. The surgery will still come. My mom is also having Asthma and Bronchitis. My dad had the nerve to tell me, "You don't know what bad is." What? You mean that mom's deadly many health problems isn't bad enough? Having to get rid of a dream house to move into a dump isn't bad enough? having to worry to death about our lack of a future isn't bad enough? I think his definition of "bad" is an actual death in the family, or being on the street at this very moment.

My brother had surgery on Friday and he is incredible pain. He's on the verge of tears. I know with my surgery in January of this year it did hurt. But I didn't cry. I didn't even cry when I had to be hospitalized with my abscessed tooth in 2009. My face swelled up several times its size. If I waited any longer, the infection could have entered my bloodstream.

I hope I'm not bringing anyone down. I am happy about that game I keep on talking about on here. That is the very thing that keeps me from having more severe problems. A very good distraction technique. Seeing the updates daily about this game helps tremendously.
Firebird.

You know, I remember my step-mom telling me once, like 8 or so years ago, that I didn't understand that my dad was going to die someday and I didn't understand death was forever. It infuriated me because I'd already lost my mom, and I very much understood that. It just reminded me of it how your dad says "you don't know what bad is." It's infuriating to have someone invalidate you like that. Don't listen to him. You go through so much and he doesn't know what he's talking about to say that.

I really hope your move goes well and your mom can have her surgery and it turns out okay. It's such a hard thing to see your parents go through such things. I don't think people always realize what kids feel when something happens to their parents.

I'm glad you have your game. I think I missed what it is, but I'm glad you have something to take your mind off things even for awhile. We all need that.
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Thanks for this!
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