Hope u feel better willow.

My nurse is coming tomorrow, she's going to be able to tell I stopped taking my meds.
I don't know how many times I need to say I'm not sick though.

But lately I've been noticing odd behavior coming from my housemate. In the past 3 months my housemate hit a parked car with a woman in it while parking next to her in a grocery parking lot. He has the early stages of glaucoma due to him having diabetes, so clearly his vision sucks. So, now I do all the driving for grocery shopping because I don't trust him while I'm in the car with him driving. Then we were all watching a movie on the DVD player and right in the middle of the movie he gets up and shuts off the DVD player thinking that the movie we were watching was on cable. Mind you, he put in the movie in the DVD player in the first place. And then the other night he says my meat sauce tasted odd and threw out the dish. This guy is only going to be 58 this year, which is not old. My housemate's father had his leg amputated due to complications from diabetes and then eventually died of Alzheimer's disease. After his father died, my housemate then had a spare room and wanted to help me out so I moved in, of which I am truly grateful. But still, knowing my housemate's medical history and where it looks he might be headed is scary to watch as it unfolds before my very eyes.

Just got back from the big meeting with a room full of doctors for Bean. Starting Clozaril tonight, she is on the federal list for it now.

I cried.

I was hoping they would tell me her problem was from taking so many meds over the years and I was praying that when they flushed all the meds from her body, it would show that she was better now.
(sigh) im upset.