Hi everyone. I wanted to dial this back to others on the spectrum so get some opinions.

I've been treated for various mental health conditions since my teens. At first, I was considered to be suffering from depression. I went off treatment without any change. I went back for treatment for severe mood swings after my son was born. Then, I started treatment for bipolar II.

That was five years ago. In the last three, I've been on the same combination of medications and I've been mostly emotionally stable. But, I'm still struggling with symptoms that probably should be able to he treated with my medications.

Anyway, an article about the under diagnosis of Aspergers in women and Dr. Atwood's research came to my attention. I started to kind of entertain it in light of many of my male relatives being diagnosed on the spectrum, including my son and brother. It just seemed too coincidental that it would only be affecting boys.

I really don't think I took the notion seriously until both my mom and psychiatrist agreed. It would explain a lot.

I spoke early, but my social and motor skills were sorely lacking. I was so clumsy that I managed to sustain five minor concussions before I was 10, three in the same year. I didn't really have any friends and socializing with my peers was awkward and painful. By the time I was in the 2nd grade, I didn't want to go to school anymore. I was too anxious.

I used to blame my lack of friends and social development on my parent's isolating the family to protect my brother. But, I'm starting to see the same patterns in my adult life. I still don't have friends. Though socializing is not quite as awkward, I find most of it useless and exhausting. I can't seem to hold a job, because it's just too much. I've always been sensory sensitive and hear things others don't seem to catch. I sometimes feel like the whole world is just too offensive for me to stand, and I'm getting to a point where I don't really want to go out anymore.

I know some of it seems like some underlying anxiety stuff. But, I discovered that a lot of Aspies share these particularly off the wall quirks:

1.) I don't think in pictures. I think in words. Sometimes I actually see language and music.

2.) I don't daydream. I mean, I zone out and kind of go into my own internal world with all of my own thoughts and feelings. That happens when I'm too stressed of there is too much going on around me.

3.) I get mentally and emotionally fatigued easily and need to retreat into a quiet alone place to recharge. Sometimes, sleeping it off is the only way I can really shut everything down.

What do you guys think? Is this something to look into?