Dear T,
I told myself: no e-mails to you this week... I don't know if I want to punish you or me but I think it doesn't matter - no e-mails means no e-mails...
But I just don't know what to do, my H has just told me that after we'll fly to my oarents place for the Easter, he'll go first for 2-3 days to his parents... Thus, I either will stay without him at my childhood home or I'll go with my H to his parents... And both options seem just not acceptable... Staying at home with my family is always great and amazing but only because my H is always with me... I haven't been there without him since I moved out 8 years ago... And my most terrifying and sadistic abuser will be there... I know, now I am safe but it just freaks me out... And going with my H to his parents? I am really, really mad at them right now, so I just cannot go there, they were so emotional abusive towards my H and they were so jelaous that we visited my Dad when he had a very risky surgery that I just cannot look at them...
What should I do? I'd like to discuss it with you but I know that you cannot help anyhow, I just have to stop complaining, it's not a big deal, right?