Anxiety is down... partly being due to the weekend. Overall mood is pretty crap though... not so much intrusive thoughts, just general attitude towards point and all that crap

My motivation to write (one of the things I laid down to keep me going) has dried up... block I guess. Went to my archery class (doing beginners and been considering becoming a member of the club); was just a case of going through the motions.. didn't really want to be there but at the same time acknowledged that that is due to where I'm at with depression... so went anyway... to do otherwise would = the likelihood of not going later on due to embarrassment of missing and having to give some lame arse excuse

Sorry that I can't say things have eased up... but going into the numb stage right now which I suppose is better than panic and other crap.

Thanks for asking, I appreciate it.

As for the comment from Pierro about the gp. You're right... but he is my only link to the medical side of what's going on. Seeing a pdoc just doesn't happen unless things go really tits up and yeah... if it gets to that stage (which I'm battling against hard, with experience and dread), I'd have probably totally lost the plot.

It does leave me feeling a tad on the isolated side though... I feel like being 'honest' would just be construed as 'making a meal' of things and so I probably don't elaborate enough nor say it as it is. Stupid, but I put the mask on... probably to save myself from hurt of being dismissed.

@zinco: I used to write down notes for my gp as I didn't feel comfortable saying it... that was back in November/December time. But things eased up in Jan and Feb and I feel he has latched onto that.... no current motivation to write down notes... as I just don't know what to say anymore.

Spoken to Fuzzy/Rohag and Frankbtl via other medium on here so I hope they don't mind me not regurgitating what was discussed in this post.

I really appreciate the messages given... and I'm sorry that I kind of broke down a little bit on the first page :s